If you've been following my journey, you know that I have struggled a lot with the person that I was working with to create my first collection. A little recap, for those who are new to the blog: lots of ideas, lots of things I wanted to hear, lots of hope, lots of empty promises, lots of waiting around, lots of money spent, lots of disappointment, and lots of anger/frustration/sadness. Basically, nothing went the way I had imagined and I lost pretty much everything I invested, which is everything I had saved up on my own and unless Mila and Nova start paying me, there is no easy way to replenish what was lost. But if I have learned anything through this entire experience it's that there is NEVER an easy way to do anything and if it seems too easy, it's probably too good to be true. 

Bodysuit: Mila James Bloomers: Crew & Lu

Everything that happened has caused me a great amount of anxiety. It's not easy to just give up what you have to someone in hopes that they are going to bring your dream to life, especially when you have kids to think about. I was constantly finding myself thinking about what happened and letting it bring me down and then telling myself not to let it bring me down then telling myself how can I NOT let it bring me down. It was a vicious never-ending cycle. All that thinking lead me to taking legal action against person X. I felt like I needed to do something, to fight, no matter the outcome. I needed to do something to help me gain some sort of closure. 

Deciding to take legal action also caused me a great deal of stress and anxiety. I decided to go about this while I was pregnant with Nova, so it was extremely difficult to handle all at one time, but again, I knew I needed this for my own peace of mind. I can't share much of what happened, but I will share that person X sent her son over to my house to counter serve me legal papers. Imagine being home alone, pregnant and with your 3 year old, and some man coming to your house pretending to be a neighbor and then as you start to open the door he starts banging on the door and windows yelling "open the door, open the door." I mean, who does that. If you are conducting a legal business and feel as though you are in the right, why would you need to go to that extent to get your point across. I was in complete shock and felt as though I did the wrong thing because I had no idea it was going to cause this sort of an issue for myself and my family. 

Fast forward to a couple of weeks ago when I legally tried to get my point across. As I mentioned before, things didn't go as planned but I feel like now I can move past this. I feel I have done everything I could for myself to gain some sort of closure and hopefully move past all that has happened. 

Bodysuit: Mila James 

I have so much product in my house that I didn't believe was made to my expectations. Some products have inconsistent sleeves (meaning some have the full length sleeves as I wanted and some have shorter length sleeves), inconsistent sizing (within one size run, some run bigger than others), and mislabeled tags. Yes, she labeled my products with random tags rather than using my own, without telling me or asking me. So many things this person did where I just want to ask her WHY! WHY did you do this! But there's no talking to some people. 

With all this being said, I can't help but to think that the stuff she produced for me has brought me nothing but bad luck. While she may think that I am capitalizing off of her production, I am not. I have not made anywhere close to enough to re-invest in my shop. So, I have decided to sample sale most of the items in my shop. Everything that I feel is worth selling. You may find some with the wrong labels, some with full length sleeves and some with what seems like 3/4 length sleeves, but I am hoping the discounted price will be worth it. 

I am hoping by doing this, I can get the support in being able to re-invest in my business and to completely wash my hands of this person. I am hoping for a clean slate and even though I'm fairly new to selling products in my shop, I am hoping this will allow me to start fresh with a better state of mind. Because I am planning to do a pretty heavy discount, I won't be able to bring all my designs to life. Though at this point, that is not what matters to me. I want a clean start, even if it means I can only add one product at a time. I would much rather have one product in my shop that I am extremely happy with and is working well for me, rather than having several products that were made with hate and not to my expectations. 

Items that will be sample sale'd: Floral Fit and Flare Dress, High Waisted Denim Shorts, Keyhole Bodysuit in Black and White. The tees I have in the shop won't be on sample sale, but will be discounted. Those products were produced before issues arose with the manufacturer, therefore those products were made up to my standards. That's another reason why I truly believe my production suffered after I spoke up for myself. When the tees were made, I stayed quiet. As soon as I spoke up, I started noticing all the inconsistencies. 

Again, thank you so much for following my journey and I hope you'll stick by me while I try and re-invest in and re-start this shop of mine! 

Bodysuit: Mila James Bow: Hello Wild Baby Co

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